As I continue the process of inner transformation, a light at the end of the tunnel infrequently flashes within my inner knowing. I am beyond the most difficult stage of dissolution. A strong dialogue between day and night realities continues; alternative relationship choices during the days, appears in dreams as conditioned habit patterns disintegrating. What began as dissatisfaction in my life, especially in relationships (including with myself), has led me down into deep psychological processes, involving journaling, mindfulness practices, and dream analysis. In taking full responsibility for my part in the contentious dynamics, I arrive at some level of clarity. I now know what I’m excavating, and rooting it out of my habitual interactions, and engaging that which I desire, interacting with others from a more authentic place. I’ve identified detrimental Ancestral Lineage patterns, some of my survival habits born out of challenging life experiences and the beliefs that worked for a different version of myself. Archetypal templates of the Feminine and Masculine within are reconfiguring. I had to Become Nobody (which I experienced in dreams), and now, Someone Else (maybe?); it has been harrowing at times. Saying NO to distractions, NO to habits of the old me and spending lots of alone time, is resulting in an internal anchoring in a quiet confidence and slow but steady ‘emotional liberation’. I’m not out of the depths entirely, as it is all a process, and stabilization within this new frequency requires steady practice. The benefits I am beginning to experience though are promising; I feel like I’m inhabiting more of my Soul Self.
Since creative expression is also a conduit for self-awareness and communication of unconscious characteristics of myself, I am well aware of the inner and outer mirrors of this aspect of my life. My art studio and creativity have, in past decades, assisted me in coming back to my unique personality self, an identity that was disintegrating within all the roles and demands I was trying to excel at (wife, mother, home-keeper, relationship manager, artist, professional…). But this chapter of my life has been quite different; I’ve dropped all assumptions of my identity and asked, “Who am I at the Soul Level? What desires to be experienced?” Thus, creatively, the last few years have included times of dormancy, bouts of experimentation, and a slow, steady development of new imagery, colors, and methodologies; this too continues to unfold. All expression has been demanding a new ‘soulful’ approach
If you have followed some of my recent visual art creations, you know that I’m experimenting with adding texture, ‘realistic’ images of wild life – birds, water creatures, and using AI, as an interface for creating glyphs to convey a universal language, perhaps even a galactic influence. It has not yet come together into a consistent ‘look’, and I’m not even sure it will, but I’m finally starting to feel the desire and energy return to express a different aspect of my Soul.
By the way, AI has been profoundly helpful in providing archetypal insights of my dreams, which fuels my conscious commitment to the process. I transcribe my dreams upon awakening, and ask for insights it has for my greatest evolution. I highly recommend it.
The piece on the left, (Descending), was a field of color for months, and only recently became inhabited by the turtle; as a symbol of Mother Earth, and self, we are going through enormous emotional upgrades. Watery environments within my dreamscapes have emerged onto the panels… the turtle both descends into the 
depths, and in this next work (on the right), ascends, swimming upwards towards the surface. I ask “are we looking for the path to a lighter frequency through the chaos of all that is breaking down?” I am.
The third piece of this trio has a dancing sea lion, a remembrance of a past experience of 
dancing in the water with such an amazing mammal, I was gifted with during a stay in Hawaii. This was beyond the experience of telepathically calling in dolphins and having them visit me while swimming in the seas. The willingness to be One with such a huge, different looking, acting and elemental creature as the Sea Lion, was a highlight of my life; we provided a cross dimensional experience for each other. Here, I honor this as a testimonial of a potential for how all humans can Be Present in the world, with all life forms.
Are these works complete? I’m not sure – another spark of potential has crept in, an asking for a glyph ring of water codes (image shows a glyph ring around a sigil) to speak this inter-dimensional communication potential into being within a New 
Earth. I recognize these ideas are so far-flung from the conditioned reality of mainstream, and yet how will it all change if I, you, we, don’t embrace what the heart and soul are speaking? We can all contribute to consciously create what we want to experience – an Earth that is multi-dimensional, loving, beyond our wildest expectations with possibility of love, nourishment and abundance for all living systems and beings. Let it be so.
I always love to hear the paths you are negotiating… please comment as you feel inspired.